Me, Myself and Naren

I have been getting this hallucinations lately- that I am getting older, people seems to be mocking at my inabilities and I do not see any flavor in anything I do. I see no difference between a Robot and I.
My age seems to be on a progressive mode, each day seeming to be an year and I am biologically 35 years old, but i wanted to be less wrinkled in the face and hand, more stamina and enthu towards life. I wish I could be Meryl Streep in Death Becomes her- only the part where she gets hold of the magic age-reversing potion!